just thinking..

So there this picture that i put in my desktop, it this


It looks so peaceful doesnt it? *sigh.. i wish there was a place i can go just to see this. I'd sit there for hours and just think about life.

You know i think im not afraid to be alone.. I find it rather comfortable and peaceful. I'm more afraid of getting too close to someone. I feel like i cant get hurt if im just by myself. Unattached. Friends W/ Benefits. etc. I rather have it that way than emotionally locked. I can't risk being hurt again. I'd die before i let someone get a hold of me like he did. Yet im preaching to others how much i still believe in real love and how to believe you should have a "special only someone" when im like playing out these two guys. Ugh I hate hypocrites and i'm just like one of the worst ones! I don't really know where im going with this.. but i just wanted to saay wat was on my mind. So yeah bye.